Death-5

İnsanların ölüme ihtiyaç duymalarının sebebini gerçekten bilmiyorum. Şuan elime sarılı bandaj ile yemin ederim elimden daha fazlası gelmiyorum. Yalvarırım beni bağışla !

Life is totally whirlpool as you know. and I don't know how to get rid of it.all my projections about life have become nothing nowadays. bam bam bam, my life literally like that right know. 

My lobster, sometimes, this life, i meant the life on earth have no meaning at all. And for countinue life, we 've to produce to new meanings for our lives. sometimes this does not satisfy us in the meaning we create over the life. Look my lobster, Almost every historicall person in the human history was sentenced by goverments. half of them were executed by goverments. And half of them are still alive. And we are not afraid still ! Even if our rulers discuss about executions of political prisoners in Turkey. But we are not fuck aboutlike you support us likeu. Cause know im totally know that, if im executed from Fuckin government, u 'il represent my heritage. 

Because of all of this manipulation, all of our communities afraid of dead. Maybe, it wuold be best thing for us, the death. Cause the death is freedom for us. For example, when i death, i'il be free, cause no one can block deads ideas ! because the dead do not harm anyone as alives. because you can judge the living, but the dead do not.What is worse than death coral? İ

İ would like to tell u some story about tolstoy between dosto. when dosto died, tolstoy said those, ''when i 've learnt dosto died, i was destroyed. Cause i would like to meet with dosto even if he was m best apponent. Cause competition improves people.'' i would like to this ego stage in my life. Unfortunately not, cause the humanity not ready for ''very different type of system'' at general like them. The humanity just wnt to daily powers. social power. They just trying to get temporary power over humans, and that is disaster. 

As dosto said, what was the point of human always trying to reach to best? im sincerely still trying to arive this point. As the human's history said us, all sort of lecturer, author trying to humiliate somthing in this life, but what was the main purpose of the humanity trying to humuliate rondoms ? Or is this just about the freud? i dont think so .  it is absolutely related with freud for sure but it is not ralted with completely freud. 

Actually coral, all of these disputes all realted with perceptions. the resolution of this dispute is actually fatally simple. Dosto trying to find resolve from god, in the other hand tolsto wants to got resolve from the ethics. at the same time tolsto do very logical thing like that, he said that, ''dear god, u' ve createn us from sand, and u did imposible, and as a furthermore, what was your egoistic desire furthermore from us ? Are u goddamn psychopath. İ would like to say that to god,what if it is real.