questioning over freedom

Go to Tibet.

Ride a camel.

Read the Bible.

Dye your shoes blue.

Grow a Beard.

Circle the world in a paper canoe.

Subscribe to “The Saturday Evening Post.”

Chew on the left side of your mouth only.

Marry a woman with one leg and shave with a straight razor.

And carve your name in her arm.

Brush your teeth with gasoline.

Sleep all day and climb trees at night.

Be a monk and drink buckshot and beer.

Hold your head under water and play the violin.

Do a belly dance before pink candles.

Kill your dog.

Run for Mayor.

Live in a barrel.

Break your head with a hatchet.

Plant tulips in the rain.

 But don’t write poetry.

BUKOWSKİ

I wanted to open this article with bukowski's poem. the poem very irrelevant with article. Lobster, we live in the most awkward and pathetic period in the world. İdk, it is good or bad. Cause what if, we live in the best period of the world, it might be terrible for human's relations cause there might a lot of good people in every corner of earth so the value of us, the value of good person might be decrease. Fortunately, we are livin worst period of earth thatswhy,  we have to accept each other's bad aspects. Cause it is hard to find another us.

Questioning about these articles, and why am i writing these words just in the night time. There isnt proper answer. just i can tell u about it. There is only the night in human life. The watch of night continues during the life. this is what happens. be good. be alive. be away. 

About my first days in law enforcement as intern; There was a law forces in netherlands around 1600. There were city guards of amsterdam. i told you about good period and bad period of time. it was very peacefull time of earth for amsterdam's people. The law enforcement (city guards) were just getting together for hang out and socializing instead of patrolling or keep people of amsterdam under pressure. Because around 1600, amsterdam passed best period of it in it' s history. Amsterdam's economy was the best in world cause of Tulpenmanie period. Because of the prosperity of people in amsterdam, the law enforcement had no work cause criminal actions disappeared due to prosperity of tulpenmanie. After that in amsterdam law enforcement forces (city guards of amsterdam) transformed to very different conditions. During the time of tulpenmanie the policemens, gendarme, soldiers got together with the purpose of hang out each other and have a fun. Because of the there wasnt any criminal action, they changed their style of secure.when th people of Amsterdam saw this condition of law enforcement, the people also wanted to joining them and they joined to law enforcement for hang out and socialising. Also there is very famous and lovely illustration about it. You can see it below. The Night Watch from hand of Rembrandt

My lobster, i dont care whether u getting angry against me or not. i would like to live in chivalry ages or world war second ages instead of now. at least there were less lie and manipulation than now. the people were more sincerely than now . The people could die for their words and their honor i meant the people lived for non monetary things and they died for non monetary things. Now, at the point of me, almost every things based on monetary. And the politicians, the politicians which we determined our existence for them and their words. Although the only real fact for them is their interests. The politicians always trying to separate us (the people), they are judging us even though there are not judge. they are trying to manipulate us after that they trying to join us their political party or their ideology. none of them think that politics and ideology can change from person to person. They just trying to make people uniform. Kurdish politicians or turkish or catalan, it doesnt matter. i would like to live in the iberian peninsula without politicians, and im sure we can live without problems in the case of no politicians or radical around. because the only problem of people who are psychologically normal is this, happiness.Just the psychologically sick people want more, such as; ideological unity, racial unity, moral unity etc. thatswhy politicians are sick. lobster, even in the case of u found most trustful ideology and ideological leader, dont trust them or him or her. you are lobster, do not forget that, walking on the same road with people who don't know to be lobster cause you can be sure, after a while, these sicks, they will show you their real faces. I do not believe that a person in need of leadership can be sincere.you can read foucault, the power thesis of foucault is best. maybe i couldnt my thoughts but if u read foucault u can understand it clearly. as a result, im just wondering that,why does a man with power always fail to remain poor ad fail to walk with poors. the answer is clear and the answer came from our evolution, the mankind/womankind always trying to hold the power unconsciously.

if u ask to me, okey roj but what are you doing for the problem of humanity. i cannot say anything. but i can say that sincerely, i also trying to collect power ( capital is our century's power) but at least im doing this for my utopia  not my egos. However, no one cannot be unresponsive against the mankind scream anymore cause the gap of income inequality increasing by day. inequality and injustice around people are growing day by day. no man remain silent against this injustice. in one side there are using iphone and buying porsche peoples, in another side starving and dying people. it is a fact that this will not continue like this in future ! although we think like that, we must make self-criticism cause although we aware of all bullshits and paradox of life, we continues to getting our luxury needs. sometimes we don't even want to share our food with another. unfortunately this selection not basic as i said. it is almost impossible to get rid of our selfishness as humankind. İn that stage, to exist as one for the benefit of these people; and satisfying your ego by doing something for their benefit may be the most intimate act. Please reject this, every human act meaningful through their benefit and interests. 

Extra: we cannot discourage ourselves from showing our choices to other people good. The community still continues important in our ages. the community thought still important for us. we are still trying to justify our actions in community. Actually there isnt need to do it. we need to do whatever we want and we can say whatever we want cause it is hard to do. and if we do that we become to sincerely human. İf should we be sincere, im very proud of my job. I can only help weak people by giving my time. in the other hand, i dont do that cause of sense getting power (money). im wasting my time with questioning of ''which way i can get a lot of power''. and now we need to account ourselves. I won't always say ''I'm right'' anymore. But i can easly say that, in this world where human selfishness dries, i just trying to im trying to cross borders as far as I can.so let's not talk about what we should do to each other in this world. 

Our world and humanity are in trouble in the period of now. and the ideology in both of us says it needs to be changed and the ideology of our saying us, ''u need to do something and u have to give something for it from u . who cares ?! since the birth of mankind there were a lot of murder and suicide. from ancient comunal life to now. what could be more serious in the case of murder and suicide? why should i sacrifice my life for sick humanity or the kurdish/turkish/catalan people which people occurring with sicks. Even Caen killed his brother. Even period of soviet union, there were numerous refugee from soviet to EU, they just came EU just because, they believed they were working very well for regime, and they believed they were very good cumminists, even though they couldn't get promoted. E.g. i read a memoirs from hand of street lights officer in soviet, the story like that: the officer did his job during 20 year. his only duty is switch on and control street lights in leningrad. from begining of soviet to nazis occupation of leningrad. while leningrad blockade by axis forces, the officer he switched sides to nazis from soviet thatswhy, after 20 years, we believed that, he deserved to desk work job instead of street job. Although the officer believed his job so honorable cause he was working for peoples. But after 20 years he also became to selfish human even though he was so radical communist during 1917 revolution. there were a lot of story like that around earth also in kurdistan, turkey and another places. 

Without healthly dialog, there is no chance to healty life. in the past ages of humanity, the people have to make dialogue, but now, i cannot see any dialogue at all. just hate speeches and ego speeches very common thats all. Even in the most honorable jobs of human history e.g. doctor,lawyer, rulers, now their only interest became to their power desires. I can't understand how we landed such thick curtains in all our eyes.in fact, all of these negative discourses of me have one reason. the reason is our evolution. whether you accept it or not, kapitalismo became part of our evolution. and we cannot turn back sharply from this stage of our evolution. And '' Sİ '' we are living in the afraid, cause we have much more to lose than our ancestors. people don't want to fight at the expense of losing what they have. The bones that their owners gave them because it is enough for them. But it wont be continues like that because of social media. Now all of us seeing everything even if we're not there.people see how their owners live lives while they even cannot find their daily needs. it ll change one day im sure. Today, each of us counts in the company records. the owner even dont care about us without our labor and our sexual function (some owner of companies trying to fuck us and also use our body as material) the system now, even worse than slavery ages. At least during slavery ages, there were ethic and traditions. But now, there are just benefits and pleasures. Becoming to ''huxley's novel brave new world'' is scares me most in my ideas about community. I wish at least honorable enemies against me but there are unhonorable disgusting owners against us.

Lets talk about our world's current literatures and tv series. Are there any nature, natural beauty, human reality, the love without benefit in those ?! Those are our current cultures right now. one netflix series watching by all humaniy include u . Those just mentioning those, law enforcement, crime, judges, courts, guns, sex, robbery. this may be the worst culture of humanity. And another disgusting point about that, this common culture(globalisation) killing each unique culture of earth. And this virus trying to kill every unique culture and it wants to get itself accepted in every community. 

Rebeling against to the generally accepted thing is the right one. it can just move us forward. it can just move us good. being revolutionary always. in the other hand, all politicians, lawyers, artist wanted to one thing as visual, fix the earth's problems in different ways. for example, stalin used arms and guns but spinoza gave us ''ethica''. The problem of humanity is visual and certain, now lets think about that, which way is ture and more logical to solve our problem ? 

At the point of me, these effort ll be absurd due to i mentioned above. we' ve already evolved to very disgusting way. it takes centuries to cure this disease. by me, all I cared about would be my children and grandchildren therefore i wont care about all . like the rabbit's passion for carrots, Everything that is alive has to be passionate about something thatswhy perfect layout impossible for the person who be able to think. So the most useful ideology for humanity in ''the limit of my knowledge'' scandinavian socialism and kurdish radical democracy. 

As a result of all; i want to say something irrelevant from camus; we will not be alone as long as we thinking that everyone has the right to loneliness. they're pushing us, we don't have time and we don't work alone.Tolstoy wrote most beautiful novel world on a war which he could not.Now the system does not allow us to write anything other than our own battles.

Actuaaly, as long as we actually continued in this way the enemy of street light officer' s are us. we shouldnt judge anybody cause we are making them worse. our judges our behaviour our chooses, it creates society unconsciously. Before criticizing the system and society we should be aware of this, we are society and we are system. 

After all boring words, i want to make a little bit romance to you with song below.  Bona nit. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CFw7AaBxatA