The end of disgusting system - A dinner story
İnformational note before the story; During ramadan period in sunni muslim countries, believers don't eat anyhing and drink any water from sunrise to sunset. They called this religious diet as ORUÇ. They continue Oruç throughout ramadan period (1 month). Besides those things during oruç, they also cannot make sex and something else like pleasure. The main purpose of oruç come from quran (holy book of muslim). Quran advising to believers to be patient, self-denying, be contemplative, to empathize with other, to empathize with poors and all oppressed classes,afterward quran gave method to believers for fulfill these with ORUÇ. The exist point is very smooth of oruç. what if i m foreigner from different part of world, i would like to recognize all of this religion and want to do oruç with this believers. And for this idea, the bureaucrats and bourgeois and law enforcement forces ( e.g. policemen,soldiers,law personals) giving free diner for fasting believers. And this dinner called as ''İFTAR''. İt is so common all around the turkey, u can easly find free dinner all corner of turkey during ramadan period. Unfortunatelly after all this time, all of these just make me sick. And by time, i realized that, In time, it is not the religion that destroys what is good in the world. The main enemy of the world is the system before the religions.
The story about free dinner in the mosque which is i mentioned to u little before. İndeed, i have to give u that info, i have been approximetly all corner of turkey and i have got experience with those all people of turkey. Generally i used this adventage while observation. . i have been ramadan dinner almost all cultural regions of turkey. From small village of anatolia to biggest city istanbul. And the fact which i realized , driving me crazy.
Usually i trying to join İftar programs in turkey during ramadan period for both have dinner with foreigner people and meeting with them and to save money for drink more alcohol to night. Because of this fact, I usually drink more alcohol at the Ramadan period since the beginning of my university life than normal period of time.
i was joined to iftar program as normal. and suddently I wanted to embody my observations for you. Actually this desire began to happen often last times. Anyway, i got my meal and i sat down. i had been waiting for the pray to start to eat. (u cannot start to dinner until sunset pray, if u are fasting.) Although I wasnt fasting and im atheist, in the courtyard of mosque was full of fasting believers and i had to wait to pray with them for start to meal. in the same time i was texting with you on my phone. after texted u and throw my phone away, i just saw the 50's year uncle in the courtyard of mosque. The uncle seems like so poor and probably he had mental sickness. and also he might be homeless i dont know. The uncle were searching for a empty seat in the yard of mosque and no ones wanted to share their table with the uncle, possible he was bad lookin and homeless. Although all of this shit i kept observing to him, i didn't try to give her a seat. that moment i thought that, im fucking atheist in the mosque yard, and this people always claim that against me, ''you are devil and u ll go to fuckin hell because u are atheist! and we ll go to heaven cause we are muslim and we are good person than you.'' The uncle almost walked around all of yard of mosque and he didnt find empty seat. Afterward, he tried to sit to children's table and even goddamn children (which are the the strict muslim childrens, they are going to quran course in mosque constantly) didnt give him to seat. Finally another uncle from my table invited him to our table. when he joined us im shocked cause '' The main purpose of this free dinner is helping poor people and workers and students'' Although this reality, there were a lot of the bureaucrats and bourgeois and law enforcement forces person in the yard which are joined to free dinner for eating, moreover their plates full of food and meat ! when i saw uncle's plate, there was just a soup in his plate ! i wish i could tell you this moment of my life. i felt like got shoot from my head. everything became meaningless in life at a time. i just turned my head and observe around, all of people most of them didnt need to get free dinner. they consumed all of foods and meats in the mosque, as a result the uncle just find a soup for dinner. at the same time all of fuckin believers keep praying in the table and yard of mosque. they were begging to god for their sins ! and no one got aware of this poor uncle or they didnt want to aware him ! who knows.every fuckin five time the mosques shouting from mosques with strong speakers for their sins in this fukin degenerate country and they couldnt provide the really needed uncle even a proper food in the free dinner. After that moment, I realized that all people were selfish because of their existence. and despite how much i tried to hold my self to help this uncle cause i was in the mosque as a atheist, and all of those people always arguing to me cause im atheist. and those people always they claim that, they are not selfish and i always claim that im a selfish because of my existence cause im a human. i decided to share my food and bread with this uncle. and most critical point, even though he has a mental sickness, he werent normal beheviours, he didnt accept my food, he just accepted my bread to share with him. !
After this experience my existential crisis jumped to an upper stage. First i started to questioning myself, why didnt i help him at the first time and i just observed the situation at the first time ? ofcourse when i share my bread with him, it felt me very good, and it make me happy but what was the sense of take me action at the first time to share my bread with him when he joined our table and there were almost 15 other believer and no one attempt to share with him except me . im sure about that, the sense of it wasnt to be favour in my heart. it was a different type of sense. i couldnt realize it anymore but this sense not innocent sense or it havent pure goodness. actually i think the sense of provoke me might be that, take a revenge from muslims. becasue of the all of my experiance and my family's experiance with muslims, they always damaged us and they had never be respected against us ! According to my mind they re still most smitten with the plague part of society in the our community. They were seems like the sum of all the things I criticized in this life over human being and selfishness of humanity. Thanks to these people I once again disgusted humanity in the yard of mosque. many of them didn't even say goodbye and bon appetit by looking into someone's eyes after finishing their meals. Even though this guys always saying arabic orisons every time and these orisons mostly about brotherhood, love, share and compassion. it seemed to represent the microcosm of this society as if it were dinner. thats why i needed to explain and write to you this story. it was very beneficial experiance to understand human being and modern society system( capitalist system)
İn that system, the bureaucrats and bourgeois and law enforcement forces persons ( rich persons) making free dinner for poor or workers or students therefore they need to keep themselves and relieve their heart in the light of their holy book and religion, even this ceremony they have no piece of knowledge about sharing and compassion.in this fake ceremony bourgeois ate big piece of food and they gave to workers and poors just bones of their foods even in the religious ceremony ! indeed, These guys lie themselves with this ceremony. İndeed everyone aware of everything in this ceremony. there arent any piece of fair even it come from holly book and u cannot be selfish in the light of your holy book and ur religion, u cannot lie to god but who cares it ?
Every body awared of everything in this ceremony except workers and poors, they just wanted to got free dinner, and that was enough for them. they didnt wanted to more after beyond free dinner. they were just hope to before the meal was over, they wanted the line of food to come to them.
Believe me, this has happened like that, since the past.
İndeed, just urban nobles behaving like that. if u go to countryside of turkey e.g. villages of deep anatolia, there are very different and exotic cultures and behaviors in practices. for example if u go to rural area of turkey, i mean deep village areas, such mardin' s or batman's , u can see very generous people. They can share everything of them with u with the cost of being hungry. the reason of it is that, those people living with their traditions and they were not integrated into the capitalist society.they are still livin in the primitive feudal society type. if these sentence not satisfying you, look at the example of fact. there are numerous example in turkey which are came from rural areas of turkey to metropolises and they are just became to cityborn and they are behaving like cityborn. they lose the most of manners which they acquired in the village. they became to individual in city, though they were lived collectivist until they arrived to city in their past. Because of these most of turkey' s poet and most of heart rich person had a village past . they had a contradictory past and it provides to their soul wealth. at point of me, this conflicting past provides them to spiritual and philosophical wealth.
I just questioning the earthly justice.
Look at the two pictures below. And tell me what is the differences of the children ? Money ? mabe/perhaps. it isnt their perant's fault for sure ! u ll see hypocrisy of ur ''EU and USA and other rich countries and (maybe partly turkey' s '' ) or it is a selfishness of the humanity, although these realities we can make a parties or fallowing our pleasures (e.g. i want to bordeaux wine instead of cheap wine etc. etc. im wasting my capital to my pleasures instead of equility.) and after those example, lets think this at general. for example think about countries and lets think about ur bourgeois friend from EU or mine from Turkey. İt is MESS. and Although this realty if someone doesnt accept they are non-selfish, they are truly liar !
The story about free dinner in the mosque which is i mentioned to u little before. İndeed, i have to give u that info, i have been approximetly all corner of turkey and i have got experience with those all people of turkey. Generally i used this adventage while observation. . i have been ramadan dinner almost all cultural regions of turkey. From small village of anatolia to biggest city istanbul. And the fact which i realized , driving me crazy.
Usually i trying to join İftar programs in turkey during ramadan period for both have dinner with foreigner people and meeting with them and to save money for drink more alcohol to night. Because of this fact, I usually drink more alcohol at the Ramadan period since the beginning of my university life than normal period of time.
i was joined to iftar program as normal. and suddently I wanted to embody my observations for you. Actually this desire began to happen often last times. Anyway, i got my meal and i sat down. i had been waiting for the pray to start to eat. (u cannot start to dinner until sunset pray, if u are fasting.) Although I wasnt fasting and im atheist, in the courtyard of mosque was full of fasting believers and i had to wait to pray with them for start to meal. in the same time i was texting with you on my phone. after texted u and throw my phone away, i just saw the 50's year uncle in the courtyard of mosque. The uncle seems like so poor and probably he had mental sickness. and also he might be homeless i dont know. The uncle were searching for a empty seat in the yard of mosque and no ones wanted to share their table with the uncle, possible he was bad lookin and homeless. Although all of this shit i kept observing to him, i didn't try to give her a seat. that moment i thought that, im fucking atheist in the mosque yard, and this people always claim that against me, ''you are devil and u ll go to fuckin hell because u are atheist! and we ll go to heaven cause we are muslim and we are good person than you.'' The uncle almost walked around all of yard of mosque and he didnt find empty seat. Afterward, he tried to sit to children's table and even goddamn children (which are the the strict muslim childrens, they are going to quran course in mosque constantly) didnt give him to seat. Finally another uncle from my table invited him to our table. when he joined us im shocked cause '' The main purpose of this free dinner is helping poor people and workers and students'' Although this reality, there were a lot of the bureaucrats and bourgeois and law enforcement forces person in the yard which are joined to free dinner for eating, moreover their plates full of food and meat ! when i saw uncle's plate, there was just a soup in his plate ! i wish i could tell you this moment of my life. i felt like got shoot from my head. everything became meaningless in life at a time. i just turned my head and observe around, all of people most of them didnt need to get free dinner. they consumed all of foods and meats in the mosque, as a result the uncle just find a soup for dinner. at the same time all of fuckin believers keep praying in the table and yard of mosque. they were begging to god for their sins ! and no one got aware of this poor uncle or they didnt want to aware him ! who knows.every fuckin five time the mosques shouting from mosques with strong speakers for their sins in this fukin degenerate country and they couldnt provide the really needed uncle even a proper food in the free dinner. After that moment, I realized that all people were selfish because of their existence. and despite how much i tried to hold my self to help this uncle cause i was in the mosque as a atheist, and all of those people always arguing to me cause im atheist. and those people always they claim that, they are not selfish and i always claim that im a selfish because of my existence cause im a human. i decided to share my food and bread with this uncle. and most critical point, even though he has a mental sickness, he werent normal beheviours, he didnt accept my food, he just accepted my bread to share with him. !
After this experience my existential crisis jumped to an upper stage. First i started to questioning myself, why didnt i help him at the first time and i just observed the situation at the first time ? ofcourse when i share my bread with him, it felt me very good, and it make me happy but what was the sense of take me action at the first time to share my bread with him when he joined our table and there were almost 15 other believer and no one attempt to share with him except me . im sure about that, the sense of it wasnt to be favour in my heart. it was a different type of sense. i couldnt realize it anymore but this sense not innocent sense or it havent pure goodness. actually i think the sense of provoke me might be that, take a revenge from muslims. becasue of the all of my experiance and my family's experiance with muslims, they always damaged us and they had never be respected against us ! According to my mind they re still most smitten with the plague part of society in the our community. They were seems like the sum of all the things I criticized in this life over human being and selfishness of humanity. Thanks to these people I once again disgusted humanity in the yard of mosque. many of them didn't even say goodbye and bon appetit by looking into someone's eyes after finishing their meals. Even though this guys always saying arabic orisons every time and these orisons mostly about brotherhood, love, share and compassion. it seemed to represent the microcosm of this society as if it were dinner. thats why i needed to explain and write to you this story. it was very beneficial experiance to understand human being and modern society system( capitalist system)İn that system, the bureaucrats and bourgeois and law enforcement forces persons ( rich persons) making free dinner for poor or workers or students therefore they need to keep themselves and relieve their heart in the light of their holy book and religion, even this ceremony they have no piece of knowledge about sharing and compassion.in this fake ceremony bourgeois ate big piece of food and they gave to workers and poors just bones of their foods even in the religious ceremony ! indeed, These guys lie themselves with this ceremony. İndeed everyone aware of everything in this ceremony. there arent any piece of fair even it come from holly book and u cannot be selfish in the light of your holy book and ur religion, u cannot lie to god but who cares it ?
Every body awared of everything in this ceremony except workers and poors, they just wanted to got free dinner, and that was enough for them. they didnt wanted to more after beyond free dinner. they were just hope to before the meal was over, they wanted the line of food to come to them.
Believe me, this has happened like that, since the past.
İndeed, just urban nobles behaving like that. if u go to countryside of turkey e.g. villages of deep anatolia, there are very different and exotic cultures and behaviors in practices. for example if u go to rural area of turkey, i mean deep village areas, such mardin' s or batman's , u can see very generous people. They can share everything of them with u with the cost of being hungry. the reason of it is that, those people living with their traditions and they were not integrated into the capitalist society.they are still livin in the primitive feudal society type. if these sentence not satisfying you, look at the example of fact. there are numerous example in turkey which are came from rural areas of turkey to metropolises and they are just became to cityborn and they are behaving like cityborn. they lose the most of manners which they acquired in the village. they became to individual in city, though they were lived collectivist until they arrived to city in their past. Because of these most of turkey' s poet and most of heart rich person had a village past . they had a contradictory past and it provides to their soul wealth. at point of me, this conflicting past provides them to spiritual and philosophical wealth.I just questioning the earthly justice.
Look at the two pictures below. And tell me what is the differences of the children ? Money ? mabe/perhaps. it isnt their perant's fault for sure ! u ll see hypocrisy of ur ''EU and USA and other rich countries and (maybe partly turkey' s '' ) or it is a selfishness of the humanity, although these realities we can make a parties or fallowing our pleasures (e.g. i want to bordeaux wine instead of cheap wine etc. etc. im wasting my capital to my pleasures instead of equility.) and after those example, lets think this at general. for example think about countries and lets think about ur bourgeois friend from EU or mine from Turkey. İt is MESS. and Although this realty if someone doesnt accept they are non-selfish, they are truly liar !
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