love and desire part-1

  First of all, even allx1000, if u sincerely would like to understand me without any misunderstood CORAL! first u have to accept linguistics ! you have no choice except to understand and accept it ''linguistics'', cause of that; if u could
nt understand philosophy of linguistics, probably u couldnt understand my mind. So i will be seen as psychopath in your eyes.So first u have to got linguistics !
  Second, I have thousands of sentences and inferences for you but I don't want to write them without sure about those. Another second is that, something tells me to write more on this blog especially during your working period cause i hope it makes u happy or something possitive. İn the other hand, my psychology have changed so hard within last year, for example now, i feeling myself so obsessive against you cause it just crossed to logical line so far. So i decided that, im going to finished this blog on end of the july totally. Cause, idk thats why, maybe u can make ideas about my psychologic stiuation, at least in point of me, it became to literally psychological obsessive.
  Second of all, let begin to talk about philosophy then, but before talk about philosophy i would like to manipulate you '' i know, i cannot manipulate u after i declared that''. This topic might be so intensitive for you. And another point is, If you don't like this kind of headline, please tell me to prevent further more topic like that in future in this blog. Cause i saw and feeling something from u via supernatural ways that, i needed to come into harder into you in always such as philosophy or psychologi.

im saying again and again, if im wrong with my supernatural skills  warn me. :d Cause i can examine ur existancial and i hate that, if someone examine my existancial !
    Third of all, dont be scared, today, i want to examine mine existancal ! And let's talk about my video call bullshit, why i generally avoiding from ur video call until today. I believe this should be explained. Before my explaination about myself, I don't want these articles to make you feel responsible to me, cause as I write these sentences, I do whatever my dick wants. I just believe that this block is a different dimension and I'm trying to live like that and thatswhy i didnt want to make video call with u cause u know, that could have made you ordinary. and further more if u want to go deep with these artical with me, the main reason just our past, u know :} Traumas give us our original personatilies. Anyway lets start to philosophy then !
   There is no happy love in human history Coral If a love is happy, it is not love.

There is no Happy Love
Man can´t keep everything in his grasp
Neither power, nor weakness or his heart
and when he wide opens  his arms
his shadow forms a cross tearing apart
the happiness he hopes to embrace
all the moments of his life are the parts of a division
there is no happy love

lover´s life resembles that of an unarmed soldier
dressed for a different fate
what good there is in waking up early
when the evening will end in void and desperation

oh my sweet love, my bleeding wound
I carry you inside like a mauled bird
they keep watching us without understanding
repeating back the words I have woven
and get killed for your lovely big eyes
there is no happy love

It is too late to learn about life
Let our hearts cry together till the morning
even the littlest of the songs is infused with sorrow
and one would pay loads of regret for the slightest impulse of the heart
what is a guitar tune other than weeping and sobbing
there is no happy love

there is not a single love that ends in sorrow
not a single love not making a hole in the heart
not a single love not leaving its mark on man
love you feel for the motherland is no different either
no one has lived a love without shedding tears
There is no happy love but
Thus is the love of you and me

Louis Aragon

Let's think about, are there happy love and not ? or there are happy love in earth but there arent story of happy love cause it doesnt need to story as a happy love. Which one is true, tell me ? what u think ? For example, what if u are a author and can you sell a happy love story book ? or can you sell a happy love story easly in ur movies ? i guess not. Even Sabahaatin ali had to wrote ''maria pudder'''s story had to end up with pain cause of commerical worries of Sabahattin Ali. So we have a concrete result about there arent any qualified happy love story in books and movies, so are u still beliving to happ love ? İ dont want to say to u ''according to Lacan or Deleuze or zizek'' cause i aware of that, u hate this style of narrative. im would like to say ''forgive me'' before my narrative about desire and love. 

   According to me , love is destroyyourself on someone or melt ur personality on someone.transform to urself to someone. No matter how much you deny these words,even u are reading these words right now, im sure, even in ur micro relationship, im affected urself and u affected myself even in the micro relationship like ours. it is just first proof of my thesis above. After a lot of love, i slightly got the love like cuisines. The new love is different taste for me, and different type of pleasure. And u might be addicted of new kind of food or taste in ur life for example ( it is just a example in point of me) u are native south american in the aztec's city and u discovered to beer. So couldnt u be addicted of it ? 

   İn the other hand, i had watched a theather in my past, the scenario was like that, Romeo and juliate didnt dead, and they are married after their marriage, they are fighting '' regular fights in proper marriage'' until they died. Before i watched the theather, romeo and joulet scenerio was one of best love story in my mind, after that theather, im mind radically changed, my mind was shocked. After that, i had started to researched to story and history of romeo and juliate and what i found, let's look that. (The story of premus and tispe) ''i havent energy to translate that story, forgive me my lobster, if u couldnt find it, i 'il translate it for ya'', ''btw, I'd rather fuck you than write those sentences, it would more enjoyble than write something like those right now'' anyway, the story of tispe and premus is archetypes which is inspered to romeo and juilet. Just in case, tispe and premus story also came from mezopotamia ;)

   İf u ask to me , what yu think about love roj?, i can respond to u , '' this is a question most of i disslike, nobody knows it properly.'' There is nothing more absurd than producing judgment about the fact which u dont really know. So dont me wrong, i dont know whats love properly yet, so my words about love above just to derive from my experience. 

   Let's talk about ideal woman type of western cult lecture, there are two type of woman in cult lecture of western culture, ( western turkey's culture's lecture also include of western culture's lecture) First type of woman according to western cult culture that, virgin, loyal and good behaving woman and in the same time that woman is cold more than marble and inaccessible. ( BTW, to understand this perception, please read of ''article's of lady'' of LACAN.  According to lacan, when u reach to woman like above, i meant marble woman, when u reached, whole love 'il done for u. As soon as you reach it, the image you create in your head will be broken when u reached to marble woman. So u cannot reached that type of woman. İn other side , there are maglalena or lillith type of woman, she seems like whore. and she is actually the object of passion and desire. i meant the true type of woman is her for man who lives on earth. ( for understand this description please watch '' belle de jour '' movie, it was really, really pure movie about sociology and philosophy. 

  Let's talk about virginity over western lecture, before post-modern lecture of western countries, the woman always descriped as acceptable such like virgin and gentle and innocent and woman to marry. And the woman  is standing somewhere in the distance from u always, and u doing ever shit until u get married this woman as a man. So what's wrong with ur lecture until 1970's ? İt was standart of lecture until 1970's in the almost whole world until 1970's so why didnt u kill all men right now as a women ? what if im woman, i always tried to kill men cause of all human's history, they sold u as a whore and they used u as a sex object, what's wrong with u let's kill them all ?! they had killed u with name of love and they had rape y wit name of love and those fuckin disgusting rage still contunie this ! rightnow. Nevermind, im male i m enjoying to fuckin u so it's not my problem :) ehehe but if u invited me to fest of killing men, i ll joined u %100 percent and end of the day, u can make me ur slave. my ideology is that ( i just explain to u to avoid to misenderstood, im just defending to historically oppressed groups such like mine ! that's why i said those above !) 

   About sheikh galib( he was poet), he was strict muslim but i love him about love poems. btw he was anatolian poet so he was from my culture. he still sheds light on the love of today's even a hundred years later even he lived on aroud 1700's. The poet of galib's name is hüsn-ü aşk, ''hüs'' meant to jouliet actually so beuty and love, and aşk meant to be lover as male. and this poem described to typical platonic love story. Hüs and aşk born were born at the same day in different tribals and afterwards aşk are jumping through a lot of difficulties to reach his girlfriend hüs. Actually u can find same story in ur western culture like that, for example, in ur culture the lover fighting against dragons for react his love, in our culture AŞK fought with jinns and fairies and the fire passes through the sea. Afterwards he succeed agains all kind of diffucluties. And Aşk exceed all of those struggles with his imaginary friend ''zeal'' such like DANTE's ''divine comedy'' novel's character vergilious. As a result, hüs and aşk meet together in somewhere, but when they meet together. Aşk thought that, it was bullshit cause even though if we were separate actually we weren't already separate,it was weird to go after her and try to meet up because we were the same person.

For hüs and aşk u can read this link, https://www.wikiwand.com/en/H%C3%BCsn_%C3%BC_A%C5%9Fk

Before end up this article, i can write a lot of thing about u and me, i can examine u hardly, or examine myself hardly, but the truth is that, i just dont want to demolish ur imagination that's why i didnt want to make video call with u cause as u see and read, love is not love actually and love is imaginary so dont collapse it with reality so , u know. bona nit lobi.